Well I've been engaged now for almost a month. It is amazing how much can happen in such a short amount of time! Thanks to my mom and sisters we have tons of fun unique ideas planned. I feel confident that everything back in Utah is being taken care of...Of course it took me about three weeks to realize that everything was going to be okay. However, the inner Bridezilla has ventured to the surface a few times and I am doing my best to restrain it from coming out. Planning a wedding in Alaska has been very stressful. All of this madness is nothing like I imagined. I have not been close to my friends or family so I often feel like I am missing out on the fun that comes along with wedding planning. It can be complicated to communicate over the phone and through emails...on the positive side my mom has had the opportunity to learn more about computers, emails, links and uploading pictures! Dress shopping is the what brings out my bridezilla the most...it just goes crazy!! So originally I thought I would just go to Utah and find dress while I was visiting in August. Then I heard from people that it takes a long time to have a dress ordered and have any alterations done to the dress. So, I figured buying a dress in Alaska might be easier, less of the hassel and rush of trying to find something in just a two day time period. I started looking around and found that all the dresses were strapless and would have to undergo severe reconstructive surgery to come out Temple Ready. So I continued looking both on line in UT and at the TWO bridal stores in Anchorage. I tried on over fifty dresses and they were all beautiful. After a week I found a gorgeous dress at David's Bridal, it fit me perfectly and I had the option of buying it off the rack right then. However, because David's is a big Coorporation they are allowed to do only certain modifications on the dress. When we finally agreed on a possible style, they found out they couldn't order matching fabric in Ivory...they could in white, but the dress isn't white. To order a white dress would take 16 weeks. I'm getting married in 12 1/2 weeks. So I asked if I found fabric if they could do it, and they said no because it was not approved by the designer of the gown. So then I asked about a private seamstress....well she could do it for $50.00 a panel...the alterations then would cost MORE than the dress it's self! I still considered it and went to look at the fabric store...the semi-matching fabric would have to be special ordered and takes 8-10 weeks.!!! That is when the straight-jacket needs to brought out! Well, after all of this I will be dress shopping in Utah Aug 6-12! I have one mission while I am there...to find a dress with out releasing Bridezilla!